Crowd Funding for a Compulsive Spender

Update on progress for the Daily Reader for Compulsive Debtors and Spenders: 168 days written!

In response to my last post about deciding not to fund an art business with my savings, someone was kind enough to suggest creating a Kick Starter or similar type of crowd funding campaign to help offset the costs. My internal response has been interesting in the time since reading this comment.

Of course, I love this idea. How romantic to think of strangers coming to my rescue to fund my vision! I had a small list of items I felt I needed to really move forward … until my addict mind began percolating. From a few hundred dollars to a few thousand in milliseconds. I thought ahead, light years ahead.

And then, there was the issue of the video. It’s clear that one must have a video. And after looking at just a few campaigns, it was also clear that sitting in my pajamas at my desk with low light surrounding me wouldn’t cut it.

Of course I couldn’t do this myself! Thus began an investigation into hiring a videographer to do the explanation video.  And they do exist … for $1,500 to $5,000.

Back to doing it myself, which led to complete demoralization when I compared myself to everyone else.

And then, I thought about the fact that most campaigns have a social good aspect. But mine was completely self-serving. Which makes me want to puke.

There actually is a potential “social good” component to this work, but it is in the background for the moment, because unless I can achieve some measure of success in selling my artwork, there isn’t much I can pass on to others with credibility.

Round and round I went. Greed and “less than”-ism fighting it out. Peace was nowhere to be found.

So for today, I am letting it lie. I do not need to purchase anything else for the business today.

And tomorrow, the artwork will be in the gallery.

Crowd funding is still in my head, percolating. But I know that when I try to force my will, it never goes well. I know that I can create a decent video if I just put forth the effort to figure it out. And I know that I need to get right-minded about my expectations and desires before I can move forward. If I want to do this right, I need to be willing to do this at a slower pace, in my Higher Power’s time, not mine.