Relapse is never the same once you’ve experienced recovery of any kind. That I know for sure. And recovery is never so easily taken for granted once you’ve experienced relapse. “They” say, “The further you are from your last binge, the closer you are to your next one.”
The gratitude that comes from remembering what it was like before is unlike any other.
God: Please let me always remember what it was like in relapse and before this recovery.